Zinethopia

cerita konfiden

2012-02-04T01:14:00.000-08:00

"awak, saya rasa sekarang ni kita da kena start bela anak lembu la,,saya sekor, awak sekor"

Aku jungkit kening sambil pandang dia.

"Agak-agak la bro kalau nak bela 'pet' pon. kenapa anak lembu?"

Dia senyap, pandang depan sambil pegang kuat stereng kereta.

"senang nak buat korban kenduri nanti"

=________________= "

dia sambung;

"Katering saya suh mak saya belanja,hahaha"

dilemma

2012-02-03T23:29:00.002-08:00

perlukah aku berhenti atau teruskan semuanya.

~Lol~

2012-01-13T08:06:00.000-08:00

DINNER N U GET CRAZIER

nota bebas

2012-01-03T09:00:00.000-08:00

dan bila saya complaint awak ta romantik;

saya dapat balasan..

Renungan awak ada cerita..senyum awak sy suke..mata awak suria sy..manja awak nyawa sy..cubit awak sy rase...chenta sy awak punye..

dan saya ketawa senyap-senyap

tepu

2011-12-30T08:05:00.000-08:00

"awak, saya kan memang tak romantik."

jadi, pergilah berchenta dengan pokok kalau macam tu.

btw, pokok pon mati kalau tak letak baja dan air.

satu hari percuma

2011-12-26T02:19:00.000-08:00

we've never been in a real date before.

and i really wish we can. have a real talk.

looking eyes to eyes and smile. as widely as we could.

but you always say work is important. n i understand that.

and you hold my hair, strokes it slowly and said

"it is the time for you to spend with others, doing your girl-thing and chat"

i did that. yes. but at the end of the day.

it's you. i wanted to see. badly.

get it?

2011-12-18T21:28:00.001-08:00

charming lelaki tak tahan lama
(azarina, 2011)

pick up line paling hebat!

2011-12-17T22:03:00.000-08:00

"duit saya, duit awak. dan duit awak, duit awak"

malam tu terus rasa awak jejaka paling hot dalam Malaysia.

hahahahahahaha!

walaupun kita tak serius mana tentang 'kita'
tapi setiap pandangan dan buah fikiran awak
saya dapat terima dan hormati.

bila awak dapat sebutkan dengan jelas 'bitter truth' tentang diri saya
saya faham yang awak nampak kelemahan saya dan awak boleh terima.

dan saya berterima kasih kerana dia tinggalkan saya
kerana dengan itu saya dapat bertemu seorang personaliti 'amazing' macam awak.

*cross finger* harap awak takkan pernah tahu blog saya wujud, blush blush

dan setiap kali

2011-12-15T04:16:00.000-08:00

bila awak tolak saya
bila awak pegang pipi saya
bila awak serius,

saya makin jatuh cinta.
dan harap awak tak tahu
degupan hati saya yang makin laju!

istimewa

2011-12-07T09:14:00.000-08:00

bila awak letak jari di antara dua kening saya setiap kali saya berkerut

saya senyum

bila awak selalu pandang saya sambil pelan-pelan usik rambut saya

saya malu tiba-tiba

dan bila awak tahan diri awak, untuk lindungi saya, untuk pastikan saya betul-betul 'okay'

saya rasa awaklah yang paling kacak dalam dunia,

haha ^^

kamu kamu kamu

2011-11-30T13:57:00.000-08:00

bila kamu cubit pipi dan sentuh dagu saya,

sambil tolak permintaan saya,

saya rasa bahagia.

sekian.

memoria

2011-11-06T08:55:00.001-08:00

i am going to put a BIG pull STOP here.

-end-

dan dia pon hilang akal

2011-11-05T09:39:00.000-07:00

aku , mungkin saja gila

walau kau lakukan apa saja cara

untuk buat aku,

terluka. bersedeyh. tertawa.

aku masih tetap juga berdiri gagah.

serasanya biasa. tanpa gentar. tanpa keluhan.

perasaannya masih sama.

oh.

dan letih

2011-11-05T02:36:00.000-07:00

kau biarkan semua bicara yang bukan-bukan tentang aku .

letih .aku jelak menahan.

dan sekarang ni aku senyum puas.

kecewakan aku, dan beritahu satu dunia.

dan yang pasti aku pun tak heran kalau si gadis itu keluar dari samping kau.

dan kebodohan aku,, biarkan satu dunia tahu.

overboard

2011-11-02T09:00:00.001-07:00

if it means to be,, it will be.

i'm grieving but you moved on

2011-10-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was you,

and what am i supposed to say when i am all choked up that you are okay.

bertemu tuhan

2011-10-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

dan aku juga manusia ego

yang tak tunduk pada tuhannya

dan aku juga manusia ego

yang fikir aku mampu tanggung segalanya

malam ini aku kalah

kalah teruk!

aku menanges dan bersujud

aku memohon dan meminta

aku merayu dan berharap

tuhan , tunjukkanlah jalan.

2011-10-24T12:14:00.000-07:00

"andai benar tiada jodoh

kamu sepatutnya meninggalkannya dalam keadaan dia mampu tersenyum tanpa kamu disisi,

bukan meninggalkannya dengan kesakitan dan kepedihan kerana kamu pernah mencintainya dan menyayanginya.

sekurang-kurangnya kamu telah berlaku adil dan bertimbang rasa sebagai manusia"

rembat dr blog kak Jue, ,

dan saya rasa patut jua begitu

biarkan aku terus menunggu

2011-10-22T08:13:00.001-07:00

Ya Allah, jika dia adalah jodohku,

eratkanlah hubungan kami, jangan pisahkan kami.

Jika dia bukan jodohku,

beri kami jalan terbaik agar tidak saling menyakiti.

hati ke hati

2011-10-07T12:04:00.001-07:00

itu yang aku rindukan

fasa

2011-10-06T20:14:00.000-07:00

dan mereka takkan berhenti berkata
semua olahan yang merosakkan hati dan perasaan
dan aku juga tidak dapat membuang semua tohmahan
maka kau harus sentiasa
berdiri tegak di sisi ku

bukan di belakang seperti ninja

jarak

2011-09-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

kalau berbicara tentang jarak, bukan physical yang jadi penentu
kadang-kadang depan mata pon rasa jauh seribu batu
dok sebelah sebelah tepi laptop pon rasa jauh ber-kbps (kilo bytes per second)

lebih baek berjauh, tapi kau dekat di kalbu
lebih baek merindu daripada memendam pilu.

benda funny

2011-09-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

mula mula kau cakap kau bimbang

tentang keselamatan, cuaca dan kesihatan.

tapi hari ini , kau suruh aku buat perkara kau bimbangkan.

dan bila aku pulang, aku masih nampak picisan biru kau di parking lot yang aku carikan.

aku tak pasti samada jiwa ini marah, sedih atau kecewa.

tapi aku senyum. i should see that thing coming.

aku tak pasti samada aku perlu minta maaf atau aku yang perlu rasa kecewa.

untuk kali pertama, hati ini keliru.

sudahlah. mungkin aku perlu lupakan saja perkara ini.

ini benda kelakar.

sekian.

doa

2011-09-13T10:51:00.000-07:00

dan malam ini kulepaskan semua kepada tuhan.

segala resah gelisah, prasangka dan pertuduhan

biarkan ia berlalu.

dan jangan pernah bicarakan waktu sebagai jawapan.

kerana aku bosan.

hati letih, tubuh lelah.

untuk menantikan suatu jawapan.

biarkan, biarkan, hati menjerit menggila.

tapi bibir mengertilah.

jangan pernah kau luahkan keluhan.

berdoalah kau agar aku setia menanti.

kerana dalam hati, kini ada sedikit getar.

percaturan

2011-08-21T06:43:00.001-07:00

berapa lama kita akan mampu bertahan............

doa

2011-07-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

dan selalu aku berdoa
semoga hati akan selalu tabah dan gagah
untuk sentiasa retak bercalar bila bertengkar
untuk sentiasa goyah bila berkecamuk minda
untuk sentiasa basah dan subur agar mencintai kamu selalu.

hati oh hati
lembut lah selalu
dan air mata, jangan pernah turun
bicara hati, hal sendiri.
tabah lah, tabah lah wahai sang kembara.

promotion,,harga murah ^^

2011-07-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

bakal rindu

2011-07-07T08:46:00.001-07:00

bila kamu pergi, saya mungkin rindu.

dan saya sedih.

bila pandang kiri, kamu tiada.

bila pandang kanan, kamu pun tiada.

tiada lagi senyuman nakal, jelingan manja, dan gelak gedik

oh kenapa perlu rindu

missing

2011-07-06T05:07:00.001-07:00

i am missing the bimbo's life i've ever had.

done!

2011-06-29T10:04:00.001-07:00

transformers 3?

DONE!

for real

2011-06-26T01:12:00.000-07:00

‘Cause it feels so right just to have you standing by my side
So don’t let me go
Cause you have my soul

And I just wanted you to know

I don’t wanna look back

Cause I know that we have

Something the past could never change.

goin three years

2011-06-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

i am totally not so sure bout our anniversary but i am so sure bout the feelings and the moments we've been through together. It is priceless as you taught me on how to be matured and patience. we fought with one another, misunderstood, yell to each other but come back and terribly missing each other.

i love you.

yes. you.

craving

2011-06-17T08:54:00.000-07:00

aku mengidam kuih puteri ayu tahap menanges dlm tidor.
migraine dua hari

tp hari ni dapat hadiah dr incik kekasih. tee hee~

terima kasih~ lebiu,,hihi

how i wish i can let them know

2011-06-16T09:40:00.001-07:00

alhamdulillah.. i got my degree. thanx Allah, almighty

mum,
i missed home
i missed your cook
i missed you

i can't help but to produce a tear when you called me
i was miserable, indeed
i'm lost

pray the best for me.

doakan Ain selalu tabah. dunia da abes belaja memang berubah 180 degree..

lagu peberet incik kekasih!

2011-06-16T08:53:00.000-07:00

You Are My Only One

We had a fight last night
And I caught him mad
Makes me feel so sad
And I'm so shame

He's my only one
I give him all my love
Even though my mom says no
I just go on and on

No one's gonna take him away from me
Everyday and every night
I just wanna hold him tight
And make sure that everything stays right

And everyday and every night
To dream of him is my delight
And know that he'll stay with me all the way

>>skg dlm kereta ,,incik kekasih konfiden nyanyi lagu ni,,haish,,,, poyo sungguh tp sweet,,hihi ^^

dunia makin berbeza

2011-06-15T08:10:00.001-07:00

working life?
it's sucked!

notification fb

2011-06-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

sejak akhir-akhir ni,,,,

NOTIFICATION

wedding
majlis bertunang
tagged photo gambo org kawen
comment on photo org kawen
status update yang dok mentioned nama aku
status update org tgh bahagia kawen/eksaited nak kawen

@_@ Hati jadi otomatik berbulu~

ptuih, ptuih

kalo la hidup mcm fairytale,,takpe la gak~

lost count of days

2011-06-04T13:08:00.000-07:00

it's hard to pretend that we're happy now and forever
i might verbally abuse you, and you might emotionally hurt me.

and for all the chances we provide each other
to redeem
to repent
to accept one another

that's what i called relationship.

it's not always sweet but bitterness is a memory.

DAY 4:

2011-05-30T08:42:00.000-07:00

i see it's coming
slowly, one by one
i know you're hurt
but in the end, it's me who hurt the most
i will put the last smile here ^______________^ for you
and i'll be strong

do what your heart tells you
i accept all the consequences.
just don't push yourself too hard to be forgiver if you can't
i promise, i wait .
this time, please trust me.

MODE: TRY TO WIN BACK TRUST

DAY 3:

2011-05-29T10:44:00.000-07:00

out of the blue, i received a message
from long lost person that i really want to ask forgiveness for

he want to apologies,me too.
i was cruel to you, and i understood why you're so mean to me
i was vain, and now, i am receiving my treatment.

i know you have moved on. and i am glad.
thank you for making my day.
at least,
all the pain i'm going through right now become less bitter
because of you.

DAY 2:

2011-05-28T21:46:00.000-07:00

i'm trying to pick up the pieces
hardly sleep at night.
yes, i'm at my weakest.
the thoughts are killing me.
people told me to accept the fact and moved on.
i just can't.

DAY 1:

2011-05-28T04:56:00.001-07:00

i forgot to eat
i eat barely nothing.

silent treatment

2011-05-27T22:17:00.000-07:00

sometime we need to let go thing
to see how it falls apart.

i am always there for you
always try my best to work thing better.

so, i guess now, it's your time.

i'll stop pushing
i'll stop asking
i'll give you, your own sweet time

to think
to taste life
to fulfill your dream

n if you've done, doing things you really want to do
n if you still don't think i'm holding your back so tightly
n if you still feel the same way you do

i guess you know what you should do.

burn notice

2011-05-27T06:50:00.000-07:00

i knew u didn't give a damn about my writing and
all the feelings that i let out and all the chances i take to believe in everything once again
u knew i was broken, heartless and cold
i was untouched.

i did tell you how easy i can break your heart apart and making you cry
but today, it's me who heart broken and cried out loud
maybe i'm losing you or maybe i'm losing us

i can't see any direction no more
i can't think the way you think
i can't digest things you speak
i can't be patience anymore
i knew we lose it, somewhere

i was asking you a simple question
but you told me i was too much
you told me to take thing slow and easy
when all i want is specific answer
there is no understanding as you're being stubborn and i'm being selfish
yeah, we lose it.

maybe i'm the one, wronged
but that doesn't make you right
maybe i'm the one who fucked thing up
but that doesn't make you, the savior
again, we lose it some more

you were so sure of yourself
while i was on doubt here and there
you don't feel the way i feel
and you don't understand a thing i think
have a heart, have a heart
oh Lord, i pray

you used to make me feel like i am the only one
making me feel good about myself,
making me feel special
but it's long gone baby
and i'm dying, here all alone

2011-05-24T23:31:00.000-07:00

makin lama,,kita makin takde arah tujuan.

kan?

home, at last

2011-05-24T04:11:00.001-07:00

i am home
but
officially broke =.="

sekali hati berbisik

2011-05-23T10:34:00.000-07:00

saya akan selalu menunggu kamu

selagi hati menyatakan kamu lah yang satu

saya akan selalu bertabah

selagi fikiran mengingati janji kamu

saya akan selalu bertarung

selagi kamu mempertahankan saya

namun,siapa tahu akan masa depan bahkan saat-saat yang terhadapan

pernah kah kamu fikirkan?

cabaran

2011-05-23T07:18:00.001-07:00

kamu buat saya makin pening tentang kita

my xtvt

2011-05-20T13:52:00.000-07:00

when girl will always be a girl *heart*

sentap!

2011-05-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

i dependent kan?

u pernah bangga tak kat i?

by telling the world how much u love me?

how much you miss me?

it's hard kan?

tak worth it kan kalo buat untuk i?

bila da tiada

2011-05-18T06:48:00.000-07:00

when there's nothing good bout me,,

senyap-senyap

2011-05-18T06:16:00.000-07:00

okeh,,memang aku admit sket ,aku orang yang 'oldskol'
handphone pon kena ade function basic je,,sebab kalo da hebat sangat nanti aku lost.
memang ditakdirkan jadi sedikit bingai dlm mengendalikan telefon dalam era semasa ni kot.
haish, apalah naseb.. >,<

aku tak suka mesej dan paling malas nak bergayut dengan telefon.
tapi aku suka menulis dan membaca
dan hati aku lebih tersentuh dengan tulisan yang berupa catatan instead of sms.

~~tapi kamu tak macam tu. kamu tiada masa menulis.~~
~~menuturkan perkataan indah tentang diri saya juga sukar.~~
~~saya tahu saya sentiasa berada di aras biasa~~
~~tiada apa yang luar biasa untuk di banggakan~~
~~pelan-pelan saya menanges~~
~~dan kamu sentiasa tidak faham~~
~~jadi sudahlah~~

Bake with love

2011-05-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

PROSES PENGHANTARAN;

SUSPEN~~~~

Penerima KEK yang Berjaya

sifu yang mengajar mengadun kek!!

WATCH OUT;

AMATEUR ON WORK ^^

PROSES MENDEKORASI

haha,, tyme ni la masa yang paling seswai nak bantai segala seni yang dipelajari

hihi ~

HASILNYA;

lihat, lihat,, berjaya kan?

pelik tapi benar

2011-05-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

bergadoh macam nak rak,,tp stil sayang kamu
plan nak mengatal, tapi end up mesej kamu bermanja2
i have a bad day, tp happy bile jumpa kamu
i hate you
but i cant resist you

i got myself asking

2011-05-11T02:42:00.001-07:00

what the best thing you can do for me?

menjerit

2011-05-09T12:27:00.000-07:00

hari ni hari menjerit sedunia.
hentak tangan kat stereng
dan pura-pura kool
jerit dengan suara yang kuat
biar lepas semua

pergi,pergi, pergi semua burden
kasik puas dari berpura-pura
kita tak happy pon
jadi untuk apa ketawa?

diam, diam, diam dan biarkan ketika
laju, senyap penuh etika
dan bila kau ucapkan maaf
kau pastikah siapa yang terluka?
kau? aku? dia atau kita?

dan saat-saat berlalu, hampa.

berhenti berharap

2011-05-07T13:12:00.000-07:00

di malam hari yang panas ini
di saat yang singkat untuk final exam
saya teringat tentang kamu
dan tersenyum

saya tahu kamu kurang selesa, terasa kalut
di ketika sahabat-sahabat kamu bertanyakan tentang kita
menyoal tentang kredibiliti kamu yang agak mencurigakan
saya faham dan maklum

jangan gusar
walaupun sejujurnya saya juga khuatir tentang kredibiliti kamu
saya sentiasa ada dan percaya terus tentang kamu
tentang kita yang masih kelam ini

saya juga tidak tahu
bila mana yang punya jawapan hanya waktu
saya berhenti berharap
saya elak untuk memikirkannya

kerana saya tidak mahu kecewa
dan juga memaksa
tentang kita, biarlah

bila semua orang tanya soalan yang sama

2011-05-07T10:28:00.000-07:00

saya pandang kamu
kamu pandang saya

sambil bagi jawapan yang paling konfiden;

"Encik Kakashi tengah tak ready"

sambil jeling-jeling ,,padan muka!

i has sad

2011-05-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

i dun like the way u tell me i wasn't serious bout my work
because i finished my work early,
it's you who so busy that you didn't have time to check on my chapters

i dun take my work for granted
i worked hard,,harder than anyone because i know my weaknesses
n i know my strength

you're bias towards me, but i didn't complaint
because that's not my way
i worker harder, and harder

you said you don't like my giggles and smiles
but yes,, being serious freaks me out
cause i dun want to look older than my actual age

we'll see. i won't give up. i' ll proved my self worthy

i'll give u my name

2011-05-04T02:58:00.001-07:00

okey, this is cliche phrase from various songs that i've picked it up lately

i give u my name.

okeyh, it's nothing.

just name. however, i find it extremely romantic,, auuw

khas utk anak NASIR

2011-04-21T10:11:00.000-07:00

say a selalu bertindak berperikemanusiaan
dan melukakan hati kamu
minta maaf kerana malam ini saya busy mencari seseorang
dan terlupa tentang kamu yang sakit dan demam

saya tahu kamu fikir tindakan saya selalu sia-sia
minta maaf
kerana ini memang diri saya
dan sekiranya ianya kamu
walau ditoreh berdarah dan luka hati saya

kamu, masih tetap saya cari
kerana sayang takkan pernah berganti
[maaf sbb sedikit jiwang]
sekurang-kurangnya ini ikhlas dr hati

pengubat jiwa saket!

2011-04-20T19:48:00.000-07:00

faktab dengan interbiu?
bosan dengan thesis?
marilah kita bersama-sama menyertai percutian kembang semangkuk,
bhahahhaha^^

thanx sha& aca sebab sudi melayan orang yang kempunan air nenek kebayan. [hearts]

gaya seorang bakal interviewee terlampau~ "muke stil konfiden walopon tak bwk sijil"

kerana telah terfaktab, beliau mencari sumber alami bersama teman-teman

muke cover baek kerana takot air yang sejok.. wuuuuu~

bila da sebati ngan air,,macam ni la jadiknya!! gunung keriangan,,wahaha

bertabah!

2011-04-17T07:56:00.000-07:00

Sepanjang petang saya berusaha melupakan semua perasaan dan fokus tentang perkara yang saya harus lakukan.
Sepanjang petang saya berusaha menahan perasaan, bertabah dan menarik muka bersemangat.

kini,
rasa logik kian berlalu
yang ada hanya segenap sayu, pilu

saya akan terus melangkah, ke hadapan.
mungkin bukan malam ni.
tapi pasti.

keliru

2011-04-17T03:15:00.001-07:00

aku tak tahu hati mana yang harus terluka.

terpingga-pingga.

dan aku berlalu saja.

Selena Gomez & The Scene - Who Says

2011-04-15T21:13:00.000-07:00

okeh, sebenarnya saya SANGAT TAK SUKA Selena Gomez

bukan sebab saya peminat Bieber tp sebab saya die-hard-fan Hannah Montana

bhahahahahah ^^

tp lagu ni memang best! buat aku ngn Farah over konfiden,, hahaha

ni lirik die.

[Selena Gomez - Verse 1]
I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

[Selena Gomez - Verse 2]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky
Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

[Bridge]
Who says
Who says you’re not start potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

I try

2011-04-13T09:36:00.000-07:00

I know today wasn't a happy day
to see the fat 'picisan' defeated
it caused you a heartbreak
and hole in your pocket
i'm sure of that

but always know that i am with you
through it all
i'll be your shoulder to cry on
and give you the warmest hug that i could afford
please , don't be sad.

Hari Fake Sedunia

2011-04-12T16:40:00.000-07:00

Oh,,ini bukan saya!! tidakkkkkkk~~~

kepada semua pihak yang menaja pakaian, mekap dan aksesori serta perkakasan kepada saya, terima kasih!

p/s: padahal memula planning nak pakai baju busuk2 je,,ni sume salah Sang Kekasih yang eksaited carikan saya baju kebaya =.="

Hop

2011-04-12T16:02:00.000-07:00

cite die fun,,tp kalo da mengantok ,,memang ko tido berdengkur gak jawabnye,..

sori sayang,,i tido,hahaha~

tp dlm byk2 karakter ,,aku paling suke si Phil ni! kiut je,,haha

Susah Hati

2011-04-11T09:09:00.000-07:00

hati makin susah
fikiran makin kusut

boleh tak bagi saya ruang untuk tidak memikirkan tentang kerjaya?

dengan AE yang melambak-lambak.
time ni jugak la ada interviewnya.

haish~

n assignments ,tolonglah berhenti menyalak

i, may not be good

2011-04-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

though our relationship is hard to describe
when all sweet memories turn bitter as the time goes by
when all i can do is giving up and stop trusting you
i know you're there, dad

sorry for making this love-hate relationship complicated
maybe we can never be like them
but trust me,deep in my heart
i love you. i do.

i'll make you proud, someday!
then, maybe we can share our burden together.

[Maaf sebab Ain banyak susah kan abah masa belajar ni]

hurt is a good sign

2011-04-03T03:50:00.000-07:00

aha,, never knew that hurt is a healthy sign in relationship.

so guys, if you ended breaking your girl's heart and she's hurt
that is a GOOD sign. [sigh]

it means that she still love you and don't give me such bullshit telling that you're afraid to see her because the fear of being rejected!

text her.

see her feedback.

if she replied with nasty words, smile a lot. >,<"

it means that she still love and care about you.

and if she replied telling you what she feels, read it and ignore it if it ridiculous [ can't believe i say this!]

but keep telling her that you're sorry and you really want her back.

beg her a little. oh, come on! be a gentleman~ this is the exact time to practice your drama skill!

do crazy things. cherish her. make her laugh. jump off the building if you have too. ^^

chocolate & flower might be lame but it won't hurt a bit!

go GAGA when you apologize. what most important is you meant it, and you're sorry.

so what if she doesn't reply.

erk~~ no worries.

usually they expect a surprise from you.

maybe, just to see you knocked on her door would comfort her.

try it.

after all,hurt is a good sign of healthy relationship.

chillaxx~

to him

2011-04-02T02:42:00.000-07:00

I've changed a lot because of you
I left my world just to fit in your life.
so you could become my world
and means everything for me.

please and please

don't go breaking my heart
as i bleed everytime i tried to mend it

Dan Sebenarnya

2011-04-01T13:37:00.000-07:00

saya juga rimas untuk mengadu takut pada kamu.

perasaan takut saya acapkali menyusahkan kamu.

mungkin

2011-04-01T13:23:00.000-07:00

mungkin bila saja saya terlalu mengada-ngada
saya harus melaporkannya pada manusia lain dan bukan kamu.
nah, nanti pabila tibanya masa
jangan pernah tanyakan mengapa saya berselindung
jika terus begini, saya yang akan hilang
dimakan perasaan sendiri.

serpihan

2011-04-01T13:12:00.000-07:00

kalau dapat dinyatakan dengan ikhlas dan tulus
hati saya umpama serpihan halus
yang mana setiap kali cuba dicantum
jari sendiri yang terluka.

lukanya tirus-tirus
tapi pedihnya, bukan alang-kepalang

maaf utk entri yang tak besh

2011-04-01T11:33:00.000-07:00

rasa terkilan dan sedih
kerana
baru saya tahu
adalah mustahil untuk saya rasa takot.

gadis seperti saya sangat kuat, hinggakan tercucuk jarum tidak berdarah
diganggu entiti dan tidak takot
bahkan tidak pernah memerlukan sang pelindung.

jadi untuk apa hati saya?

untuk dihenyak-henyak dan di pijak-pijak
kerana saya gadis picisan.
satu pun tidak bernilai di mata kamu.

Gf ensem!

2011-03-30T20:22:00.000-07:00

Situasi:

Di dalam picisan biru yang gemok, saya yang memandu;

Kami sibuk berbincang mengenai rumah di Jalan Kebun yang baru sahaja kami tanyakan. konsep tanah yang menarik, harga berpatutan dan sesuai untuk kehidupan berkeluarga kelak. sedang sibuk berbincang mengenai rumah, Sang Kekasih menyampuk.

SK: B, sedar tak kita tengah cakap pasal rumah ni?
E : Sedarlah, apa pulak tak sedar. takkan la you tengah cakap pasal biskut plak.
SK: [buat muka gedik] Hehe,, kita cakap pasal having family, settling down.
E: [muka terus merah dan pemanduan terus jadi hura-hara]

kesimpulannya;

saya rasa saya hensem, tp tibe-tibe rasa cam tak! >,<"

nanges sendirik

2011-03-25T10:59:00.000-07:00

aku syak aku dah jadi pondan

siket-siket nanges.

tadi nak cuba print maklumat untuk women literature

pastu dakwat abes.

hari ni ,apa yang dok berangan,,instead of cocok dakwat ink dalam cartridge

aku cocok jarum ink tu dalam ibu jari kanan.

saket??? wuu jangan cerita!

menanges teresak-esak bersendirian.

yang paling cuak,,jari da berdenyut-denyut n darah tak berhenti2 mengalir

aku kol incik kekasih. dia tidor.

ye saya gagal dipedulikan lagi. =.= trimas~

skrg ni aku gagal type mesej dlm handphone.

leyh type gune keyboard je,,tu pon sebab die lembut,,wuuu.

tahniah ezza!

anda berjaya cucuk jarum kat ibu jari sendiri n mengenakan kaca pada diri sendiri,

yeah~!

hari penat lelah

2011-03-25T08:38:00.000-07:00

tadi terpaksa bergegas nak mengambil kakashi hati dari opis.

pas amek ,,kakashi hati kata nak beli tv.

jadi kami sevey semua tempat tv..wuuuu,,penat gile, sambil mata da berpinar-pinar

itu belum lagi dengar kakashi hati sevey rumah

kepala da berdenyut-denyut.

nak pilih rumah pon masalah.

belum pikir pasal kawen, ade anak, nak anto anak p sekola,,haish~

saya tetibe rasa menjadi remaja saat paling indah

walaupun jerawat penuh di muka.

ni bila pikir pasal komitmen bulanan, duit dan tanggungjawab

saya jadi lemas~

setengah jam kemudian

2011-03-24T18:59:00.000-07:00

tadi bangun awal2 pagi siap sarapan sume,

kononya semangat nak kemas barang nak pindah

sekali ,,baru kemas buku,, tepuk-tepuk habuk siket ,

muka da gatal, dang!

aku surrender kemas buku,,esok baru kemas lagi.

da cari seluruh rumah,,n masih tak jumpe buku ungu tu,,haish.

apalah naseb

ezza da jadi bimbo

2011-03-24T18:32:00.000-07:00

i was packing up my stuffs because i wanna post it to Johor.

especially my books. so i arrange all my books inside the box.

then i realized.

i cannot find my complete set of the Malaysian literature books.

i am so sure that i buy it all in one set. thus i will have the revision n also the text books from form 1 until form 5 as a preparation to teach in school.

futhermore,i am going for my interview next week.

damn!i never been a sick minded person.

i am sure i already put it together in one box!!

since when i become a bimbo that i can't even remember my stuff?

=.= ezza,, what have you become ? Noooooo!

p/s: another two weeks i have my interview a part time lecturer. needed the book to make my LP. hush,,,,ade interview baru ingat buku!

untuk kamu

2011-03-24T11:43:00.000-07:00

kadang-kadang saya perlu diingatkan selalu bahawa

saya bertuah!

kerana kamu sangat-sangat sayang saya.

tidak kira seberapa pecah belahnya kepercayaan saya tentang keluarga.

tidak kira seberapa susahnya untuk memahami saya

tidak kira seberapa tingginya permintaan saya.

terkadang saya terlalu memikirkan perkara lain, sehingga saya lupa

kamu, orang yang patut saya banggakan

untuk selalu ada.

at the end of the day;

2011-03-24T09:22:00.000-07:00

today is most memorable day. I've learnt a lot. but let pictures serve you today.

Dear God

2011-03-23T21:21:00.001-07:00

am i making the right decision.

give me sign

so close but so far

2011-03-22T07:16:00.000-07:00

i've read ur post, days ago.
i always do.
n i know u r upset with our current situation
it's not that i didn't care
but u used to leave me alone, going n sleeping at other places
without telling
n i have adjusted myself to combat with my own paranoia bout this house
n how to take care of my ownself, independently.

i was waiting for the school holidays to meet the end
so i can see you
but little that i realized, ur back much earlier than i thought
during the busiest day of my seminar
in which i haven't sleep for days n have to involve in a class 'drama'
which hurt me n i despised it so much.

so i went home just to see u
maybe this is the part where i got everything wrong
u packed ur most noticeable stuffs
n it gave me the impression that u r ready to leave-without-telling
n i just shut myself off
maybe i am being too sensitive
but i don't know, i am clueless.

if you say u miss the good old days
why'd you take it away?
today, i don't really know what's ur next move.

n i become a rock, to prevent myself from crying n hurt some more.
because i know i did love you and still am
but don't take it for granted.

cause that what we have done in our friendship.

seminar

2011-03-19T13:06:00.000-07:00

i am glad it ended nicely even we are lack of practice and organization.(since it is last minute work) but yeah, simple appreciation like thank you means no harm.

that's what we want ~

haven't sleep since yesterday. =.=

my world#1

2011-03-14T21:23:00.000-07:00

been calling you for so many times
n u answered with simplest tone ; "takde line"

missing you

2011-03-14T09:23:00.001-07:00

yeah you.

hati berkaca-kaca

2011-03-13T07:47:00.001-07:00

when Fynn Jamal starts to sing 'Sampai Tua', a song that she dedicates to her husband when they were in their worse season, i am touched. because the lyric hurts even just to hear it.

it's about love,
between husband and wife, during their bad times.
mature love, i may say
how the husband feels so guilty because he wasn't able to give her the world
as he promised
by the wife replied by telling him, he is her world. auwwww~

sampai tua

kasih

kesatkanlah airmata

ku dah tiba

kasih

percayalah aku kan ada

sampai tua

ini sumpahku padamu

usah kau patah dan layu

garing siang malam beku

pasakku teguh untukmu

mungkin taufan akan surut

tetap datang petir ribut

setiapnya aku sambut

untukmu takkan ku takut

takkan ku takut

takkan ku takut

takkan ku takut

kasih

biarkanlah apa saja

takdir kita

kasih

pegangkanlah jariku lama

sampai tua

ini sumpahku padamu

usah kau patah dan layu

garing siang malam beku

pasakku teguh untukmu

mungkin taufan akan surut

tetap datang petir ribut

setiapnya aku sambut

untukmu takkan ku takut

takkan ku takut

takkan ku takut

takkan ku takut

dan malam takkan berhenti menghirup nyawamu kasih

dan siang akan berterus meratahmu sampai bersih

aman saja aku ada

dihirupratah pun tetap kita berpimpinan berdua

sampai tua

aku ada

sampai tua

this is how God answered me

2011-03-13T01:23:00.000-08:00

i see it clearly now.

TQ

when words become too difficult

2011-03-09T18:12:00.000-08:00

action speaks louder than word, rite?

here thing;

i've tried my best for us.i am bad at words, i know.
[n LOVE, i know how irritated you are because i always talk about her]

when i'm home, u wasn't there n vice versa.
the feeling of despair kinda tangled around my heart
i know we got issues n it so hard for me to talk it out,
[eventho i've listed down >,< but still can't say it]

just this last one,

SPECIALLY MADE FOR YOU.

[what happen after this among us, i leave it to God to decide]

Kryptonite

2011-03-03T18:38:00.000-08:00

do you watch Superman? So, you might be familiar with one of the Superman's weakness is a Kryptonite. Not that , i say i am a Superman. it just that i wanna highlight on the kryptonite-thingy. you see, i think i just found out bout my own kryptonite.

i am always, undeniably falls for a gentleman.

i should be alarmed!

heartbreak lullaby

2011-02-27T05:22:00.000-08:00

i know, i should talk
people advice me so.

things won't go away with a silence treatment
i am aware of that.
i am sure.

too much love can be a poison
too much care can be a burden

and i am not complaining
it just that i am exhausted
trapped with my own feeling
all alone

i cried till nobody can persuade me to stop
my eyes become red, and i feel the burning
bitter or hurt, i can't describe
it's a sensation.

deep inside my heart

JUST SO YOU KNOW

2011-02-26T08:54:00.000-08:00

i got nothing to be jealous on you.
instead i am happy if you are happy.
we've been there through all messes
creating memories.
WE laugh together, cry together
dream together.

u told me that you are the person who values friendship the most
n i learn on how to trust a friend from you
but you,

Break my heart again n again
when all i do is trying my best to be there for you
but all i got is a disappointment

i jeopardize my love relationship just to defend you
but did you know that?

when i told you VERBALLY n in written form of what you should not do
i thought you understand

if you really think i am no longer you BFF n i kinda syok-sendiri
at least you should respect me as human being

i care about you, A LOT.
in fact i kinda worried to leave you alone when i have a date
but did you do the same?

do you think of me when you are on date?
have you ever think of my feeling when you did things that i have told you not to?

i am not perfect.n never be
maybe without my knowledge,,i hurt you the same way

but
I just cant stand it no more when i care so much about you but never be appreciated
words become so hard to be utter when all i can do is a silent stare
n cry,, cry n cry helplessly in front others.

i should stop. i know.

so maybe this is the end.

dun have to

2011-02-24T22:59:00.000-08:00

u dun have to break my heart when you wanna go away

it makes me missing you more and more.

2011-02-20T09:44:00.001-08:00

when all i want from you is to keep me safe,

terbaik untukmu

2011-02-18T07:00:00.000-08:00

Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku

* oh kini aku sadari
ini salahku
tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali

reff: maafkanlah bila ku selalu
membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
ku lakukan itu semua
hanya tuk buatmu bahagia

mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
aku cuma ingin jadi terbaik untukmu

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikan
sesungguhnya cintaku

it's cliche

2011-02-17T07:15:00.000-08:00

every time mesti jadi menda yang serupa.

ia telah menjadi cliche yang paling lame di abad ini.

rasa cam bilik sendiri jadi cam tempat persinggahan.

dan perasaan itu sangat bosan!

saya tak berapa suke

janji

2011-02-11T12:49:00.000-08:00

saya berharap dapat jadi orang yang lebih tabah, matang dan berani dari hari ini

saya kuat, saya gagah dan saya tegar.

tapi itu semua secara fizikal.

sedangkan dalam hati

saya seorang penakot yang bacul.

sejenak

2011-02-10T18:57:00.001-08:00

Life ends when you stop dreaming. Love ends when you stop caring. Friendship ends when you stop sharing. - Tyson Gentry

u got me thinking Gentry,oh